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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 13:44

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I never cut or harmed myself..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But it wasn’t much.

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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

What did i know ?

(And it was in our own minds.)

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

One cannot live in the past .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

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I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

It was going to be , some day.

Comes on , in middle age.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I don,t even have a pension.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She was in good health!

Was to survive, this bastard.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

When she asked me how she looked .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She loved him until the end.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Especially a lifetime of it.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I have no regrets .

This is soul school!.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

So whats the point in blame.

Im still living with it.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

We all went to grammer schools

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But ive been too sick for many years..

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I write beautiful poetry .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My family never makes their pension either.

I will be 64.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Who then, do I blame.?

All the time i was locked up.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She married twice! .

And i lived it daily.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

She wouldn,t have been !

Put me off passion for life!!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

She found it foreign!.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I couldn’t, believe it.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Why did i forgive my father ?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I was scared of men, in general

He knew the spot.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I was 9 years of age.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I was seconnd youngest,

My life is so biszare .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

But, we were locked up after school.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Ive learnt so much.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

We were not on the streets..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I said to her

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

So, i spoilt her more .

He resisted the act ,that day.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Would this be the day?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I was very sick at this time too.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.